Sudahlah Cus!

There were time to let go, there were time to forget...

"Sudahlah Cus!" it's the right word to reset my state of mind..

To be fine, to be normal, to back on track and to be ok....

Who Am I?

Hal ini terbesit ketika gue tersadar kenapa banyak banget nama panggilan buat gue. Yang kadang bikin gue bingung "who am i exactly" hihihiihih...

Untuk banyak orang mungkin cukup satu saja nama panggilan yang mereka gunakan. Misalkan, namanya Tini yah sampe tua ya Tini panggilannya, tono ya tono teruss....tapi gue baru "ngeh" gue pake termin umur, pas SD siapa, SMP dipanggil apa, SMU dan kuliah apa...beda2 loh,,,nama panggilannya, termasuk untuk setiap teman gue, mereka punya nama punya panggilan sendiri buat gue, tidak tahu karena memang gue orang nya ikut ajah, atau itu artinya panggilan sayang..alah..pusink dech..


Tapi bener loh, hal ini yang kadang bikin gue mikir, ketika diperkenalkan sama orang, gue langsung mikir "yang ngenalin gue, manggil gue apa neh, biasanya gue nyesuain"..cape ya??

Waktu TK dipanggil Lia
Waktu SD dipanggil Dewi
Waktu SMP dipanggil Tri (ih..Tri?)
Waktu SMU dan Kul S1 Icus
Eh Waktu kul lanjutannya S1 juga ada juga yang panggil Suci..(suci gak ya gue??.)
Kalo ngantor pake panggilan Lia lagi donk...
Orang rumah, panggil Lia juga pastinya

Nah, kalo panggilan dari temen..hmm laen lagi..
Ichang, Icung, Icuy, Cussy, Tiga, dan Cumi alah.. aduhh...(ayo ngaku sapa ajah tuh yang suka manggil gue dengan nama itu :))

Who am i anyway? yang pasti TRISUCI SEPTALIA DEWI kali ya...

Pulang

Berjalan ditepian waktu
Sangat lelah ketika itu menunggu
Aku sangat ingin bertemu kamu
Aku tahu kamu tahu itu

Dari kala itu sampai entah kapan
Kamu selalu menjadi rumah bagiku
Hanya cukup tatap wajahmu
Aku ingin pulang kepada kamu

Detik hati berjalan tak tentu
Aku seperti anak panah yang tak tentu arah
Karena kehilanngan pijakanku
Dan itu karena kehilangan dirimu


16 Nov'08 06.55 am

what are they fighting for anyway?

I just recently watch infotainment on my morning day. There she was, a female politician (who used to be an artist), who is being sued by a university coz she was spread some news that this university involved what she believed, which is deceived the truth about her opponent education history. She claimed that her opponent has a false diploma. She said that based on what she has investigated that her opponent just needs 1.5 years to finish her bachelor degree.

Well, it is so common that when there is some election, to lay low their opponent is a must. They will spread some news that could affect their opponent images in a front of public.

Nevertheless, how she reacts, when her opponent won the election and she was being sued, was the most surprising. She claimed that she lose the election coz the government was also involved. OMG….Why does she just accepted the reality that she is lose, and try the next election. Is it giving her better image for her to the public? *sigh*..

To lay low our opponent it is not just happen on the election matters. It is happen to all matters as long as correlated with ego. No one loves to be a loser. There is another story about this kind of story. There is a band vocalist that claimed that her wife (soon to be his ex-wife) suffer some kind disease that coz from a false sex behavior. So, his soon to be ex-wife, was also claimed, that she was once has that disease coz, it was her husband who is causing it. OMG, again? Is it so personal, to discussed this kind of thing in a front of public? They are thrown out their own image….To claim and be claimed, is so tiring. The husband (in this case) he has his ego, to save his ass, don’t want to be a loser, coz that there were a fact that he was cheat on his wife, and for the wife side, it is time for her to defend her dignity (way the go girl! Loh?). The thing that I like to discussed in this case is how is the husband defend his losing ass stuff by claiming the thing that is so personal. His ego ask him to do that, he was un –satisfied being exposed for the love affair that he has done, that is why he has to defended himself. Damned…

Acceptance is the main point in here, as I concluded. To lay low our opponent it is not the answer. It is so true; to accept that we are losing is the hardest thing to do. No one loves to be a loser or losing their ass. Nevertheless, if it was meant to be happen, accepted and move on, will you?

What if i were a boy?

I am a kind of person that absorb and digest, all the the things that i have heard or read. So, "if i were boy" song by beyonce, it is really made me think, and wondering. "was it, if i were a boy, i could undestand more about the thing that i haven't known before." It is like to have a mind mapping for they though,what they feel and how they are react. Coz,all i know, that men are from mars, women are from venus. Not to mention, we have a different mind area, they are the logic one, we (women) the opposite one. Moreover, it is like ying and yang too, the good and the bad :p.

My ex-boss, once said that we have to have a helicopter view, to see all matters that is happen. So, we will have a wide range point of view to analyze. Not to mention, we could calculate and prepare the domino effect, for the thing that could happen. Sound, so serious? Well, she said that in the term of working area. But, we can use it in the term of relationship, i guess. Coz, to have a helicopter view, it means we will see thing not juz in one side, but from a both side to every problem or differences that is occur. It is not juz he said,she said, or he think, she think. But, it will be "we think, we said" it is like we are reconcile our differences.

So, i wish i were a boy, even juz for a day, like beyonce had sing. Coz maybe, i could understand more about them. Not to mention, to have their mind mapping and not wondering all the time.

Love Addiction

I have watched "grey's anatomy" about a couple weeks ago and in that episode meredith grey talk about addiction. Hmm..being addict it some situation that most people would not like to be in that situation. Not to mention, it is not juz drug that causing us being addict, some habitual condition or even an existence of someone in our daily life is also give the same influence as drugs. Being needed by someone, chat with ur fren, being called three times a day, or even cheating to ur partner or even for some psycho to kill is also give the same addiction..(so scary rite heh?).

Being addict it mean causing someone to demand these addictive existence and never get enough of it, you juz, want it more and more. There are some adrenalin that is rising up every time, this kind of thing happen.

But what if, the thing that we are addicted was love or perhaps an existence of a person in our daily life. I was kind a remember an old movies, "Addicted to Love" which there were Meg Ryan and Matthew Broderick on it. Meg ryan was so addict with her boyfren, so..em when she was being dumped, by his boyfren, she was juz lose control, and wondering why on earth that she was being dumped. So, she started to stalk his ex..OMG..is this kind of thing happen? in our daily life, well...emm..i guess..i heard a lot of story about it..this stalking stuff.

Is it love that causing this kind of an addiction or it is juz an obsessive impulsive of someone that causing it? The feeling of could not have something that we are eager to have it, it is like give us some curiosity, asking some question which started with the letter of "W" ..Why..Why..and Why..

To being addict was hurtful, but to let go of it, it is more painful, like drug, i guess. But, coz it was a person that we are addicted to, so we can not bought in some street, or there are no free trial for it, no one will give it away, so we have to deal it.

Love addiction, have you ever been in that situation? or am i have this kind of addiction already? hmm..i wonder...